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MY FITNESS JOURNEY

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My fitness journey has certainly NOT been a linear one. I’ve had more ups and downs than I care to remember or admit. Along with it, the size of my clothing and the number on the scale has fluctuated tremendously. Maybe, most importantly, the internal changes and struggles have been the most challenging.

I grew up playing soccer for as long as I can remember. I started around 5 years old and played through my first year of college. I was young, naïve, and figured since I was an ‘athlete’ that I was in shape and didn’t have to worry about how I fueled my body. However, I was beyond self-conscience. I remember being in high school and trying to find bathing suits that were ‘cool’ but would cover up as much of my body as possible.I ended up ‘retiring’ from soccer and found myself unsure of my next move to keep myself healthy and comfortable in my skin. I would go to the gym but didn’t really know what I was doing. I yo-yo dieted for years, up and down, happy and sad. It was a vicious cycle.

Next I found bikini competitions. While some may look at this picture and think this is the epitome of health, it’s not. I had zero balance in my life. I had an awful relationship with food – extreme restriction and massive indulgence when I was allowed a ‘cheat meal’. I was constantly moody and felt that I was missing out on so much in life. But, I thought I had the ideal body, which is solely what I was judged on. I spent hours upon hours in the gym every day and had a diet consisting primarily of plain tilapia and asparagus. There were points that a meal was steamed spinach with olive oil and a protein shake because I couldn’t eat solids. It was the farthest thing from healthy.

I did a complete 180 from bikini competitions when I found CrossFit and Strong(wo)man. These sports focus on what your body is capable of and not what it looks like. I loved the new thought process and enjoyed working out again. So much so that I coached CrossFit to adults and kids. I loved every second of it.

I did a complete 180 from bikini competitions when I found CrossFit and Strong(wo)man. These sports focus on what your body is capable of and not what it looks like. I loved the new thought process and enjoyed working out again. So much so that I coached CrossFit to adults and kids. I loved every second of it.

I truly did and do enjoy CrossFit, but my time became extremely limited once having my son. CrossFit is known for quick workouts that provide great results, but I just couldn’t get past the mom guilt that came with me leaving my house, my son and my husband to spend 90 minutes away from them when I could do a similar style of training at home, in my living room, and on my own schedule.

And, that’s what I did. That is what I do. For the first several months after having my son I would wear him – hello, added weight, and exercise at home! Now he is playing at my feet or joining me in my squats, still at home. I enjoy my workouts, I enjoy my diet of whole foods, and I’m happy with what I see in the mirror.

In the end, I truly believe that my experiences with many different types of fitness has led me to where I currently am. I’ve taken the best parts of my journey and continue them now, adapting if I need to, and letting go the worst parts, like extreme dieting. I’m not as thin as I was when I was a bikini competitor, but I’m happier. I’m not as strong as I was when I was doing CrossFit and Strong(wo)man, but I’m happier. I’ve found balance with my exercising and diet. Through my entire fitness journey, I’ve never felt like I’ve represented the healthiest version of myself – mind, body and soul – until now. It truly is a journey, but with commitment and patience, it is possible to find balance and happiness with yourself.

Keri Shaw

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